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i will live.. if it is not there
i will live happier if its there
i will be happiest if its there and desire me as much as i desire it!!

Yes, i desire it.. it which is not unusal, but difficult, it which challenges me at every step
My desire for it is of no meaning, if its not mutual, if we dont share similar respect for each other!!

Yes, me is naive, so is it.. but we will grow, with time.. together!!
yes that's what i desire..

This will make sense to the society, to families, to elders.. if our heart is pure and our intentions are true.
This i believe, may be the only thing i believe in right now!!

'It' is the only thing that has made me feel alive, though i still breathe, when it is far away and distant..
And i will never cease to breathe.. though i am afraid there will be no life.. it will just be a dead man breathing on artificial system.. like we see in the hospitals.
It holds the key to my happiness and my directions.. i think what i want in life.. put all my logic to want everything else but it.. silly!! haan.. all i see at the end that it is the only thing i want and then everything else will make sense..

It will make sense only if i dont have to bend down on my knees and beg for it.. it will loose all meaning then.. for what good it will be if there is no respect.. coz if there is no respect there is no love.. we will cease to exist.. i alreasy have... but i still hope.. hope for the best and live happily till then!!

me.. silly!!.. me

My Existence

I am sorry... for failing myself,
it may seem that i have failed her.. but its me who i have failed the most.
I am sorry for not knowing what i am doing,
I am sorry for the pain and the trouble i caused for the people i love the most.
I am sorry for not understanding what is the right thing to do..
I am sorry for letting my desire overrule my reasoning al the time.
I am sorry for blaming you .. for the mistakes i did..
I am sorry for not keeping my promises.
I am sorry for being such a child...

One thing i am not sorry about is that i tried my best to do what i promised, even though it was not the right thing at that time.
I am not sorry about being hopelessly in love with you,
I am not sorry for you being a part of my existence now,
I am not sorry for sleeping and waking up only with you,
I am not sorry for missing you every moment,
I am not sorry for these tears flowing down my cheek.. when i realize what i have done

No matter how i feel now..or whether i am sorry or not sorry about anything,
being so close to me , you are so distant.
A thousand achievements is not enough to fulfill the space in my heart, which craves for your warmth.
Today i accept my mistakes, bend down on my knees and promise myself to once again believe in myself ...
I thought i was doing the right thing, though i suppressed my intuiton..
Now i stand in a hopeless situation, where it doesn't matter anymore , how much i love you, how much i want you, how much i desire for you...

I am sorry once again for being what i am ...

Being sorry is not going to help now. I will get only what i worth in this life, I have to understand this little reason of life.

I miss you like i never missed anything before, I want you like i have never wanted anything else.I promise to do everything i can to .... i just hope and pray that its the right thing i am doing.

I love You!!!