My Existence

I am sorry... for failing myself,
it may seem that i have failed her.. but its me who i have failed the most.
I am sorry for not knowing what i am doing,
I am sorry for the pain and the trouble i caused for the people i love the most.
I am sorry for not understanding what is the right thing to do..
I am sorry for letting my desire overrule my reasoning al the time.
I am sorry for blaming you .. for the mistakes i did..
I am sorry for not keeping my promises.
I am sorry for being such a child...

One thing i am not sorry about is that i tried my best to do what i promised, even though it was not the right thing at that time.
I am not sorry about being hopelessly in love with you,
I am not sorry for you being a part of my existence now,
I am not sorry for sleeping and waking up only with you,
I am not sorry for missing you every moment,
I am not sorry for these tears flowing down my cheek.. when i realize what i have done

No matter how i feel now..or whether i am sorry or not sorry about anything,
being so close to me , you are so distant.
A thousand achievements is not enough to fulfill the space in my heart, which craves for your warmth.
Today i accept my mistakes, bend down on my knees and promise myself to once again believe in myself ...
I thought i was doing the right thing, though i suppressed my intuiton..
Now i stand in a hopeless situation, where it doesn't matter anymore , how much i love you, how much i want you, how much i desire for you...

I am sorry once again for being what i am ...

Being sorry is not going to help now. I will get only what i worth in this life, I have to understand this little reason of life.

I miss you like i never missed anything before, I want you like i have never wanted anything else.I promise to do everything i can to .... i just hope and pray that its the right thing i am doing.

I love You!!!